Great Friends

On my mission my Aunt Patti sent me a Halloween card that 6 years later is completely applicable it read" They're Big, They're Scary, They're Out of Control...." and on the inside it said "They're my THYS" I laughed forever about this card, thinking about it still makes me laugh!
And now its just how I feel my Thys have become great friends and the madness has GOT TO STOP. No more eating whatever I want and no more idly sitting by while they become closer and closer something has got to be done and no day like today to stop them from becoming even better friends.
Yes I am blogging about my thys :) Next may be about my arms... ohhhh I better not even get started on that.

Eventful Life & FHE

OK so it seems like we have been on the go NON STOP for the last 4 months... we have been home one weekend in 22 weeks INSANE I know! Part of me is grateful it has helped time to go faster for me and part of me feels like I am missing out on life as it whisks right by I am grateful to have been so busy and there are no signs of it slowing down anytime soon. So to catch up on what we've been doing
* We bought a new Nissan Murano and Love IT! The Blazer died we need something reliable I have always loved them... but when we test drove one it was Love for both of us and we shopped around and found a great deal we LOVE IT!

** Cindy (a girl that we taught on my mission) came to visit us for 10 eventful days we loved having her here and are glad she was able to come

*** We went to Zions National Park while Cindy was here we've never been there and didn't have much time there but what we saw was Beautiful! We were also able to spend some time with my mission companion taught Cindy in Hurricane while Ray went to see his Aunt Lillian and her family.

** We just got home from an eventful weekend in Idaho Rays youngest brother played JV and kicked butt then his other brother was first runner up for homecoming Royalty. We watched Homecoming games in the FREEZING cold weather, went on 4 wheeler rides, Shot guns & Had lots of fun and are getting a new little niece on the King side.
* Yesterday (Sunday) my little nephew Nash (not so little 3 months 15 lbs) was blessed so we were able to spend the whole day with my family and had a great time.

We are 98 % sure we are moving into a new place more to come on that later
Last but not least
FHE so the second Sunday of each month my Grandma and Grandpa Huff have FHE at their house in Brigham. It happened to be yesterday as we were on our way home from Idaho. I didn't really want to go because we had been in the car for a while and gone all weekend I just wanted to go home and relax... well we decided to go an I AM SO GRATEFUL that we did. I LOVE my grandparents I have been so blessed to have AMAZING grandparents on both sides (my Moms and my Dads) and now to have Rays as well we count our blessings! FHE consists of Dinner then a lesson assigned to different families each month. So last night my Uncle Joel gave the lesson on Conference and did a little quiz to see who listened to all the talks. We had a blast! just reviewing what we had learned and been taught... we laughed and cried a bit. I just want to express my gratitude for my family! I feel so BLESSED to be a part of something so wonderful! Each time the lesson ends we go around in each family and give updates on what is going on in each family (there are 8 brother and sisters so it takes a while) then we sing God be with you till we meet again each time my Grandma cries which starts a whole lot of tears for everyone. Last night there was a very special spirit (there always seems to be) I distinctly felt the spirit in the room as we sat together singing hoping that God will be with all of us until we meet again. I just want to say I am so GRATEFUL for the heritage which is ours. I am SOO Grateful that we were able to go!

Powerful

I have a lot to Blog about but my emotions are a little to raw at the moment so I will blog about this man.

Jeffrey R. Holland

He is my favorite apostle (if you can have favorites I do). He tells it like it is and I love that about him. I always look forward to general conference to sit and listen to the council of the prophet and apostles. There is nothing like a good jolt to get my spirit going again. We were able to go to the Sunday afternoon scession and Elder Holland spoke first. Talk about powerful!! If you have not heard him speak or read his talk you should. When he speaks it always reaches my heart he speaks with POWER and PASSION and TRUE CONVICTION. I feel blessed to have been in his presence along with all those who spoke. He spoke powerfully about the Book of Mormon and the men who have died for its cause. He bore testimony as a whitness of God of its truthfulness and power to bring peace in our lives.

I want for that peace to be in my life and in our home and because of him I resolve to have it and not take the Book of Mormon for grantid as I have. Living the gospel really comes down to doing the basic things we've been taught since we were little. Daily prayer, and daily scripture study, service, and with each thing we do to come closer unto the savior we are promised his blessing and that peace that only he can give.

So today I am grateful for Elder Holland for his passion and conviction to the gospel of Jesus Christ and all of the men and women who lovingly prepared to teach us this weekend.

Tender Hearted

Last night we went here... who can beat $2.00 admission

We went to see a little of this BULL RIDING... nothing beats a good rodeo

We also saw this... a lonely Elderly Man...

He came up the stairs of the band stands (we were at the very top) he kindly asked the people in front of us if all the seats in their row were taken they said yes.. and he started searching for a seat again.. I as well started searching for seats for him... there were a few behind us. He quietly and kindly sat down by himself to watch the rest of the rodeo. I kept looking at him my heart breaking for him he must have been so lonely. I leaned over to Ray and said life is harsh sometimes... I wondered what this sweet little old man has lived to see and what heart break he has faced. The older I get the more I realize how tender my heart is... I felt so bad for him. People shouldn't have to feel lonely especially the elderly it breaks my heart!

Then this morning I stopped at the gas station on the way to work and a little elderly man who could barely walk had to get out of his car and go in to pay for his gas... he could barely walk.. and because some punks steal gas he has to prepay... so it took him forever to get into pay I offered my help and the gas attendant had already offered... I was on the phone with my sister and broke into tears which made her break into tears... my heart breaks for the elderly, the down trodden, the lonely, and broken hearted. Why does life have to be so harsh sometimes?

I feel like the Lord is trying to teach me a lesson allowing me to see those who need a little help or a freindly face.. I hope we all can reach out to those who need a little help, a seat to sit in, a hand to help at the pump, and a smile to help them along the way. I am an overly emotional person anyway but I would never change the way I feel it helps me to Love a little deeper even if it causes tears I am grateful for the ability to love and to care.

Balloons for Blaze

Blazes due date was this last Saturday August 29th... a day I have been dreading for months... so many days in August I have wondered if I would make it till the end but we did... and I am grateful. We went home for the weekend to help Ash with her booth at the fair and to spend time with our family. We spend the weekend before with Rays family we are so blessed to both have amazing families and to have been so busy the month of August I am grateful!
On Saturday morning we drove out to Howell it doesn't take long for the emotions to roll in each time we drive there thinking back over the events that have happened in our lives over the last 3 months.... tears come easy as they did on Saturday. We went to Blazes grave and just talked about how different our lives are now and how different they might have been. We stood at our little boys graveside for a while... we bought some ballons to release and some to leave with him... releasing them was so much harder than I thought... I couldn't bring myself to let go thinking that I was letting go of so much more than just ballons... all the anguish in my heart. It took me a long time but when I felt the time was right I let them go. We tied them together so they would not be apart... like our family I guess gratefully I am tied to Ray and he will help me make it back to Blaze. I feel a lot better than I have maybe I needed to just turn over what I can't control to the Savior and I feel like a big part of me did when we released the ballons for Blaze. We miss him EVERYDAY and can't wait to see him again!

Blazes Grave Marker in Howell. Ray picked out the Orange Balloon (his favorite color and I'm sure it would have been Blazes too) The Flowers were from my Grandma Huff she gave them to us the day of his service and they are still going strong. The Bear is from Rays Aunt Echo she is so sweet and we wanted Blaze to have it by him.

My Handsome husband talking to out son... he is the worlds best Dad! I am so grateful for him!

Me not wanting to let go of the balloons... and Ray waiting patiently for me to have the courage to do so... Oh my heavens for me there are so many emotions tied to this picture I miss our little boy more than words can express!

The releasing of the balloons... the sky is cloudy and I remember thinking that morning... the weather reflects just how my heart felt. WE LOVE YOU BLAZE and MISS YOU Every Single Day!

My Uncle Dirk, Uncle Byron, and Ray gave me a blessing on Saturday night that I really needed I am so grateful for the preisthood power... I am grateful for the knowlege that God is aware of all we are going thru and I am grateful to know that Blaze is safely in his loving arms just waiting for us to make it back to him. Ray also had a blessing that reassured me God loves us for that I am grateful!

One Day You Will

Ray took me to the Kenny Chesney concert on July 23rd it was AMAZING! We were 26 rows from the stage and it was seriously so AWESOME! Here is Kenny supporting the U! He played for an extra hour because Sugarland couldn't make it again AMAZING!!
This is our new favorite band LADY ANTEBELLUM they were awesome! So good that we bought their CD on Friday and we LOVE IT!! You can see how incredibly close we are to the stage THANK YOU HONEY worth every penny!

Miranda Lambert came too but she was way too woman rule everything for me... way too much woman power we have pics but I didn't post them... we liked Lady A and Kenny much better!

So since we purchased thier new CD we have listened to it a dozen times. We were cooking up some goodies for weekend family events on Friday night with their CD playing... when the last track came on we stopped dead in our tracks... it is exactly how we feel now... what we are going thru... the only place I could find the song was on Youtube... so you don't have to watch the video but you can listen to the song its called on day you will... it is exactly how we feel.

Here it the link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wB_rRIWoGAA

also here are the Lyrics.. THANK YOU EVERYONE WHO LOVES US AND ARE HELPING US GET THRU THIS EXTREEMLY HARD TIME IN OUR LIVES WE LOVE YOU!!

One day you will Lyrics

You feel like you're falling backwards

Like you're slippin' through the cracks

Like no one would even notice

If you left this town and never came back

You walk outside and all you see is rain

You look inside and all you feel is pain

And you can't see it now

[Chorus]

But down the road the sun is shining

In every cloud there's a silver lining

Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)

And every heartache makes you stronger

But it won't be much longer

You'll find love, you'll find peace

And the you you're meant to be

I know right now that's not the way you feel

But one day you will

You wake up every morning

and ask yourself What am I doing here anyway

With the weight of all those disappointments

Whispering in your ear

You're just barely hanging by a thread

You wanna scream but you're down to your last breath

And you don't know it yet

[Chorus]
But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there's a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won't be much longer
You'll find love, you'll find peace
And the you you're meant to be
I know right now that's not the way you feel
But one day you will

Find the strength to rise above

You will Find just what you're made of, you're made of

[Chorus]
But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there's a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won't be much longer
You'll find love, you'll find peace
And the you you're meant to be
I know right now that's not the way you feel
But one day you will

One day you will

Oh one day you will

Just One More Day

I love reading about other peoples stories... how they got to where they are now.. what events in life have changed or shaped them. We have been watching a few of my cousins the last few days while my Aunt Patti and Uncle Dirk went on Trek with their stake. They came home last night and I could feel the spirit they carried and see it in their eyes that they had just had a life changing experience. They shared some sacred and inspiring experiences which made me have a new found gratitude for those who have gone before. Little did I know how it would bless my life now...
I have been having a really hard time and am struggling a bit with depression so last night as Ray and I knelt down to pray I spilled all of this lifes heartaches out to him the things I feel and my most inner struggles and heartaches. I let a lot of it out and then he asked me to say our family prayers... I said "I don't want to pray or have anything to do with religion right now" he very lovingly said "Will you please be the one to pray and let Heavenly Father know all you are feeling" I reluctantly did so... it was one of the most humbling and one of the hardest things to face telling God all that I feel and I don't think I have the faith to make it, I can't do it on my own... and as we were kneeling there both in tears. I felt such a gratitude for those who have gone before... those who sacrificed ALL they had because the loved God more than the trails they were going Thur they loved him more than anything life could throw at them, they loved him more than most may understand... I am so Grateful for those who went before I am grateful for the legacy they have left for us to follow and most of all I am grateful for their Faith to keep going when they maybe didn't want to but they did because they had to... I feel much like that I only keep moving because I have to and pray for the faith to make it... just one more day just as they did... I am grateful that because of their faith mine in strengthened.