I usually don't do just journal posts I wait till I have pictures to show what we've been up to and I have some DARLING ones of our little nieces and nephews on Halloween soon to come...
I just want to share a little bit of one of Lifes little bumps that seem to be all along the way... it seems that they pull at my heartstrings every so often in a way that I feel Heavenly Father saying " Now Janet it is time for me to stretch you and help you grow a little bit more... its going to hurt a little but I will be here" A little heart surgery is what I like to call it.
Ray and I have been trying for a year to have a baby... to fill our lives with little ones and more laughter and love. I have been thru tests and last week it was Rays turn to have a test. Well we got the results back today... needless to say our chances of having a little one on our own are not very good. Our hearts are so heavy but we are trying to see the sunshine thru the rain. When it is our turn I know that God will bless us with the little ones we have been waiting for. Sometimes it is just so hard when it is not our timing but his. Rays Dad wrote us a letter a few weeks ago and gave us some sound advise that made a great impact but now makes an even greater one he said. " Families come in all shapes, colors and sizes it is not always ideal how them come to us but they will come" How true that is. I have to believe that God has a plan in how this will all work out... I guess I just want to express my gratitude to him for knowing what is best even though we don't undertand. I am grateful to know that he has our best intrests at heart even though we may not see what they are looking back he always has. He sees the big picture and knows when we need to stretch and grow to be a little stronger and a little better.
I am so grateful for the family he has given both of us. We have been so blessed to be surrounded by people that we Love and that support us in all we do. I am grateful for Ray what a great man he is I love him with my whole heart I can't imagine going thru this without him by my side. I am especially grateful for my Sister Ashleigh she is great at helping me see the sunshine all along the way she is such a strength to me! I am grateful for all of my siblings I have the worlds greatest broothers. We all Love and support each other thru lifes little trials. My Brother Jon called me today and said "the world teaches you to live for today it's all you've got... but with my experience living for tomorrow is what gets us thru lifes tough todays" What a profound statement so we'll look forward to tomorrow and know that miracles happen!
