Halloween P AR TAY

We had our first annual Nessen Halloween Party on Saturday night we had a BLAST! Thanks to Ash for setting it all up! We went bowling at Fat Cats in Ogden then out to dinner at Chilis. We laughed so much and had a great time!
Ray and I went as the Bun Maker and an Oven LOVE MY HUBBY! Isen't he so handsome! I'm one lucky girl!
My Mom & Dad Mom was the Fairy Godmother and Dad was just himself... we we're just glad he came :) Ash & Mike as Morticia and Gomez! Hilarious! We lost Mike in the bowling ally and so they paged him as Gomez Garza so funny! Doesn't Ash make a hot Morticia? Love Them!
Last but not least Jon & Kelli this was the winner of the best costume by far! You should have seen people stare everyone wanted pictures and he was in full character. It was HILARIOUS to see him dressed as a woman to say the least! We had so much fun! And to think... this is just the beginning!
Happee Halloween!!

24 Weeks

Here we are 24 weeks as of tomorrow morning... I am feeling a little anxious, a little nervous, and very reflective on past events. My body has never been past this point before. Tomorrow we reach the same point of pregnancy that we were at when we went into labor with Blaze. We have been to a bunch of Dr. appts everything is looking great so far. They are taking extra good care of us however part of me can't help be worried a little... from here on out after just 6 more days (that we're all spend in Labor last time) we will be in uncharted territory... we'll have never been pregnant past that point. I can only have hope in good things to come. It has seemed to go by much faster this time.
My heart is full and my heart is hopeful! I am grateful for Blaze grateful that we got to spend a week with him, loving him and learning more than we ever imagined we could from someone so small. I am also grateful for the opportunity to be pregnant again! We are not so naive this time as to think all babies come to stay or that all parents get healthy children... but we are hopeful that my body can hold on and we will get to bring Blazes little Brother home to love and to learn from. My good friend Stef and I went to lunch yesterday and she said "Little children come to teach us not for us to teach them" Does that ever ring true for me. Little children are the gateway to heaven and I am thankful for an angel to lead us home and a new baby to teach us while we're here.

Puppies in Heaven

Ashleigh has had a big week at her house... Cinnamon her dog had Dexter (our dogs) puppies. 4 of them on Tuesday the kids love them already they all have names. This is Peanut he was the runt of the bunch. He didn't make it thru his first day he was so small and so weak :( Ash called me yesterday not knowing what to do. We were both heartbroken because Cinnamon was so worried about her little baby and couldn't help him. We can both relate but there are no comforting words when you're a dog. So Ash buried the sweet little puppy and sent me a text saying "I guess now Malia and Blaze have a puppy to play with" I burst into tears and called her so sad to lose a little one no matter if your human or an animal we will miss little peanut. But our babies no doubt are loving their new little puppy. We Love You Malia & Blaze!

Miss Kenna

I LOVE this little girl! We got to see her on Sunday... we decided last minute to go to FHE in Brigham to see my Moms side of the family.
So on the way there Miss Kenna says to Ashleigh
Kenna: "Mom is Aunt Janet coming?"
Ash: "Yes honey she will be there"
Kenna: " Oh She is going to be so excited to see me"
Ash laughing "Yes she will"
And was she ever right I am ALWAYS excited to see her beautful little face and her giant personality in one little adorable body! She just started preschool a few weeks ago and dance... she wants to be a teacher and a rainbow when she grows up oh how I love her! I LOVE being an AUNT to all my nephews and neices!
Being an Aunt is the Best thing EVER!

It never gets easier...

We went to Blazes grave on Friday... to take him his pumpkin for halloween and balloons. Something inside of me knows he loves balloons.. I think Red would be his favorite color. So each time we go to be at our little angels graveside we take ballons. Most of the time it is surreal that we have to visit our little boy at his graveside. This time seemed particullarly hard seeing our names on a head stone struck my heart. We miss him everyday and are grateful he is ours forever!

For me the reality is that it never gets easier to visit his graveside. We still cry and we still long to hold him and have him in our lives. In some ways the feelings of hurt and anger have subdued into feelings of learning and hoping I am being the Mom he needs. I hope I have learned from the trials and heartache placed before me. I hope to be better in order to be with our angel again! I hope he knows just how much we love him and he doesn't feel forgotten! Most of all I hope he feels the Love we have for him!
We got him these flowers for Memorial day... and some earthly angel (we don't know who) has watered them all summer so to who ever it may be THANK YOU for being there when we cannot! We feel so blessed to have you watch over out little angels grave.
Other pics... her I am at 17 weeks... I think... I thought I was huge LAME! And here is 21 weeks big difference! Baby G is growing fast we're grateful for everyday we get to be part of another miracle in our lives. We find comfort in the thought that Blaze is helping his little brother along the way :)

If you missed the last post check it out... it's from Ray he is hilarious! I am lucky to be surrounded by a house full of wonderful boys! Ray, Blaze, soon Baby G, and Dexter. I love it!

A New Piece of Heaven!!

Okay, first so everyone knows, this is Ray... Janet's amazing, hot husband (okay, mostly I think that of her, but you know...). So I don't hardly ever check this blog, or post to it, but the other day I came across something worth posting, that everyone should know about and try... THE NEW COKE FOUNTAIN!!!

So we walk into Cafe Rio and there are these new red machines next to the regular coke fountain, of course I HAVE to check this out. So I walk to the machine with my cup, and notice there is only one spout in the cubby... okay we'll figure this out. First, push the cup against the tab and out comes the ice... okay step one down. Next observe the "TOUCH" screen filled with about 16choices of soda flavors... YEAH 16 choices... but it doesn't stop there.

Being a fan of orange soda, I pick the FANTA selection on the touch screen. Up next on the screen, not only is there a selection for Orange Fanta... but about 7 or 8 different choices of flavors!! Yeah, I could pick Strawberry, Raspberry, Grape, Peach, Lime, and on and on. Now if there is one thing I like more than orange, it's peach... HAD TO HAVE IT!!!

After having my delicious peach soda, I had to go back... I picked the Root Beer button, praying for vanilla root beer, but alas, it wasn't to be. Okay, let's try the Coke, after the coke screen I could choose from vanilla, lime, cherry, or orange. Orange Coke? Have to try it!! But wait... a dreamcicle Coke? Now we're talking... Half Vanilla, Half Orange Coke... MONEY!!!

I will be putting one of these in my den when we build our house... But only after we fix the problem of the Vanilla Root Beer and Vanilla Orange Fanta... come on Coke, that isn't Rocket Surgery.